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Friday, February 19, 2021

IDENTITY CRISIS

I would like to share a real life incident. But before that I just want my readers to be aware of the fact that I got permission from the person associated with it before posting this in my Blog.

I came across a girl who was very charming, caring and God-fearing. In fact, I used to envy her because she was so talented and was loved by many. We became close and one day she told me about her past. She never seemed to be the type who would undergo depression.  She was physically abused when she was young. And it wasn't just once but on several occasions she was forced to have a physical relationship. This is what she told me : " Flora, back then, I just wanted to kill myself. I didn't know what was happening but all I felt was that guilt and disgust. I lost my trust in men and I felt like I had absolutely no reason to live. But I wasn't brave enough to kill myself either. People only valued me for what I had. Am I worthless? Am I unlovable? Am I not pretty enough? Is this all I deserve?."

On hearing this, tears rolled down and I couldn't reply to her immediately. I was trying to put myself in her place. What would I have done if I were her? I think I would have had such suicidal thoughts too.

After a few days, I spoke to her and this is what I told her :

" What makes you think that you are worthless? Did you know that God designed every detail of YOU with perfection? God loves you so much and HE wants you to share your story and give hope to other young women who are facing the same situation today. You went through this for a reason and it will be used for HIS glory. Don't ever look down on yourself because God didn't give up on you. You always had God by your side, but...you never needed God and you lived your life that way. It's not too late to let Him heal your past."

For her, it was child abuse. She thought that she had lost her identity because of what happened to her. There are times when we are forced to doubt our Identity. We rely on people's validation. 'What will they say?', 'Will they applaud if I do this?', 'What will they think of me?'...Have you ever had such thoughts?

It's just natural for us to think like this. Our IDENTITY comes from JESUS CHRIST. This world might give you different labels but that will not define who you are in Christ.

Monday, February 8, 2021

She said . . . . .

It was a pleasant evening and I was just waiting near the entrance for the bell to ring so that the gate would be opened and I could go home. I was in my first year of PG and I still remember that day when I was sitting with a blank face with absolutely nothing going on in my head. As I was sitting on a stone bench, an unknown girl walked towards me and sat next to me. Since I'm the type who easily gets along with people , we started having a normal conversation. She was a believer and she was talking about her experience in college. We spoke for about 10 minutes and then she got up and she looked at me in the eye and said :"Hey, Jesus Loves You". For a moment I didn't know how to respond to her. I knew that Jesus loved me and I've always heard people preaching about it, but this time it was different. I felt it deep inside. I felt like the Lord wanted me to hear it. I don't know what you are going through right now but what I know and what I can boldly tell you if you are reading this is that "Jesus loves You".

Dr. Scott Fenton -
"I remember that night in 1974
In December in the Arbuckle mountains,
At the bus celebrating winning the state championship.
That was the first time I got it: Jesus loves me!
And when I got that, that He loved me like that, it changed my life
I mean, it changed the direction of my life...
The purpose of my life, the fabric of my life...
Everything changed when I realized how Jesus loved me"

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