The story behind "Second Chance"

 SECOND CHANCE

    I'm really glad that I was able to write an original song and share it on YouTube. I've been writing and composing my own songs since 2016. But out of the songs that I wrote, 'Second Chance' is definitely one of my favourite songs because I literally wrote about my experience. I never really looked back on my life and re-thought about anything. I lived my life without regrets. 2019 was indeed one of the best years I've ever had. It was a year when God blessed me in different areas of my life in unexpected ways. 

    During the first week of this year, I wasn't happy. It was as if there was something missing in my life. I felt a void in my life. In February I hurt a lot of people. I said a few things that hurt my friends and I couldn't take back the words I spoke. I came up with silly excuses in order for them to forgive me and overlook my mistake. I couldn't sleep at night because I realised that I had turned into a person that I wasn't meant to be. Every morning I woke up with a heavy heart. I wished that I could travel back in time and undo whatever I had done. I tried my best to fit in because I didn't want to be the odd one out. I wore a mask wherever I went and I was loosing my identity in Christ. I was broken and hurt deep down inside but I pretended as if I was having the best life on the outside. I had no one to talk to. I quit social media and I didn't contact my friends. I felt so lonely and there was only one place where I found peace and comfort and it was in the presence of Jesus. I spent my time with God by praising Him for who He was and my relationship with Him was renewed. I was beating myself up for what I did but then I slowly asked God for His forgiveness. I begged the Lord for a second chance. I later apologised to the ones that I hurt. I believe that Jesus forgave me because I was able to feel the inner-peace that I had lost. During the time that I spent in the Chapel I heard Him whisper " It's alright. I know that you messed up and you ruined your self-image that you built up all these years. I know that the people who were once there for you aren't here by your side now because of what you did. They might have changed their opinion about you but I haven't changed the way I see you. I just want you to know that I love you more than anyone else. I am disappointed because you let out the words you shouldn't have. My love will help you get through. I promised you something and  whatever happened was to prepare you for the future. I want you to stay rooted in Me and trust the process. I will give you a second chance." 

I wanted to share about my journey with Christ through this song. There is a verse in the Bible which says : 

If anyone is in Christ he is a new creation The old has gone the new has come
 2 Corinthians 5:17

God corrects those whom He loves. I am usually short tempered and it was because of this bad quality that God had to put me through a situation to make me realise that my words were powerful. Ever since this happened , I made sure to think a million times before I spoke a word. Jesus gave me a second chance and He is willing to give a second chance to all those who seek Him wholeheartedly.

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Chase Your God given Dreams

"If your dream doesn't scare you, it's too small"

My friend and I started doing Bible study together using 'Bible app: You Version'. There are many plans in that app and we can choose any plan that we want. So we did a plan called ' Chase the Lion ' by Mark Batterson and I learnt a lot from it. I would like to share a few things from that plan.

    We all have dreams, don't we? Well, I didn't really have a big dream till I was in my final year of undergraduate programme. I didn't really focus on anything and I was still questioning God about my purpose. I am a person who wants to do things 'my way' and 'by myself'. 

    Most of us think that hard work and persistence is the key to success. That is what we hear from people and we believe that it is true. It is only partially correct. Without God nothing can be achieved especially when it comes to God given Dreams. 

' You have to go after a dream that is destined to fail without divine intervention '

    God should always be the source of our success. It's easy to talk about your dreams to people but what does the scripture tell us? Faith without deeds is dead. Once we believe it we must start preparing mentally and physically towards our God given dream. Even as God leads us through this journey of pursuing our  dream there will be times when we will have to face disappointments. 

    Like a mother eagle that pushes her eaglets out of the nest when they are strong enough to fly, God might be stirring your nest. You may be afraid of falling but God's intent is to make you fly. Your dreams will inspire many people, no doubt. But your dreams will also summon opposition. It's because you are disrupting the status quo. It doesn't matter what people think about your dreams. If God put the desire in your heart to pursue that dream, it means that HE designed that dream just for you. The most important thing that we often miss out is recognising and celebrating the success God has given us along the way in pursuing our dreams.

Is your dream big enough ?

Do you believe that the God who put the desire in your heart to pursue your dream will help you fulfil your purpose?

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Fighting for Your Heart

FIGHTING FOR YOUR HEART

Toby Mac released an album titled "The Lost Demos". It was just another normal boring day and I came across a song from this album on Youtube because I was stuck at home due to the pandemic (COVID-19) that hit the world. There wasn't anything great about the music but the lyrics made a lot of sense. 

" I know you got secrets

That you have locked away "

All of us have secrets and we don't share it with people because we aren't really proud about it. It might be a bad memory to some people like me. I have secrets that I've been trying to hide for almost a decade. And my secrets are locked within my heart.

" I know you feel let down

By your friends and family "

The people whom we cling onto will shake us off at some point in life. There is a familiar saying ' Blood is Thicker than Water '. But is it true ? My Friends and Family have let me down.

" And you told me you think about givin' up sometimes

But no distance between us gonna hold me back tonight "

I've had sleepless nights. Nights when I just wanted to escape from this reality. Nights when my pillow was soaked in tears. I wanted to quit. I wanted to take a long break. It was during those lonely sleepless nights that I felt God closer to me like never before. God said that HE was right next to me. HE said that no distance could ever separate me from Him. 

" 'Cause I would take a bullet for you

I would take the fall

And I will be the last man standin'

When everyone else is gone

Oh, my love will find you

No matter where you are

And I will be the last man standin' by you

Fightin' for your heart "

Jesus is the only one who will stand with you till the end. God sent His son Jesus Christ to this Earth and instead of you and me He took the bullet and gave His life for us. It was His way of showing us how much He loves us. God is chasing and pursuing you. He is fighting for your heart.

Will you let him have your Heart ?

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